"Was i wrong about everything?"

I ran in circles for years before I even realized I was in one. I found myself so trapped in a damaging and almost never-ending cycle where I felt any and everything needed to be fixed, that my fixation only left me with more issues and problems to solve. I was always ready to lay it all out, and put myself at risk for the sake of escaping a trap I felt I was in... but the trap was ultimately larger than my understanding of it. This painting is a representation of a realization that took years to arrive. I wouldn't wish the events that lead to its creation on anyone, so I wrote an essay about it as a guide.