"I wanted to do everything all at once..."

This painting captures the beginning of a phase where ambition and recklessness combined. I found myself trying so hard to balance everything I wanted to achieve, that it i almost lost it all. And i didn't care, i was ready to leave it all where it was. This painting lives in the tension between capacity and collapse. It's where i got the chance to do everything i wanted, but the weight it all brought was too heavy to carry.